Monday 26 February, 2001
5.55am E&M. Both went well although I trapped a nerve for the first time in ages. I was too keen. That is when it always happens. Too keen means uncontrolled. Stop this. Also, my thoughts were all over the place.
Spoke to Karaj this morning. As he said, I am on my own path and that is my only concern. That is where my focus should be. He also pointed out that having made the choice to follow this path, it can be a little disheartening because progress is very slow. I cannot point to anything tangible and say that I have achieved this or I am doing that. It will take a few years yet before I can reap anything from the hard work I am putting in.
However, I know that I am making progress and this journal is testimony to that. In addition, my friends have noticed the difference in me in recent months. We have known each other for more than 10 years and for most of that time I was an angry young man, confused by the state of the world and the ignorance of those in it. Now, much of the anger and frustration has gone and I am much more content with my world, and that is clear to those who know me best. Enough said.