The Best Laid Plans…

Saturday 8 April, 2000

Well, yesterday was as much of a failure as any learning experience can be. As soon as I met up with my friend Aubrey and his two friends, I went into withdrawal.

I didn’t have anything to say and the more I tried the more I worried and the more I withdrew. I tried to force myself to say something and I tried to relax and allow things just to flow. Nothing happened. So, I couldn’t even get past the first thing on my list.

Observation of anything proved impossible. The venue for the evening was a pub with very loud music which made conversation extremely difficult. I made my excuses, left early and returned home feeling down. I’d had high hopes for the evening and I came away frustrated and upset.

I was upset at how quickly and easily I had withdrawn and how difficult it was to get out of it. I don’t seem interested enough in anything people have to say. Maybe that’s just the way I am. Maybe some of us have to be quiet in order to balance out all the talkers this planet seems to have.

Maybe I just need more time to get the hang of pastiming.

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One Response to “The Best Laid Plans…”

  1. Eveline Says:

    Sometimes it seems like the 2000 version of you is talking straight to me. More elegance on my part? Give everyone a chance. Don’t steamroll people. Good post!

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