What About What I Want?

Saturday 1 June, 2002

My thoughts started to get negative today as I saw just how ‘please others’ I am. I go along with whatever’s going on around me rather than influencing it any way. This applies to the verbalisation too, or rather a lack of it, as I keep on keeping things to myself. The Please Others driver always takes me into a position of trying to see both sides, which is why I accept people’s words so easily. What is my position? It’s the original question from all those years ago, and I still haven’t answered it. Also saw my lack of discipline; where are the exercises, and what about what I want to do? I defer too quickly and easily. It’s time to take this opportunity fully and take ‘risks’. That’s what I told myself today. Grow up.


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