Making Everything Conscious

Tuesday 11 February, 2014

Late last night we found the final piece of the jigsaw. It took us an hour to get there and was triggered by a line in the previous post, about which I was not satisfied. By the end of our conversation, that line had been changed and both Karaj and I had gained insight into who we are. We had moved knowledge of ourselves from our unconscious into our conscious awareness.

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Cockiness & Humility

Monday 10 February, 2014

I was always cocky, but nobody ever challenged me about it until I met Karaj. Even then, it took a couple of years for my arrogance to flourish because for the first half of my training I did little else but ask questions and soak up the wisdom and knowledge on offer. Because of my desire, Karaj had a responsibility to honour my commitment to discover the truth. He had to make sure I was shown the right path. In this way, the commitment demonstrated by either one of us, demanded commitment from the other.

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Olive Oil & Serving Spoons

Sunday 9 February, 2014

This is a delightful example of completing the picture; the procedure of relating both or all sides of a shared experience. It creates clarity, provides learning opportunities and enhances the connection between people. I shared two meals with Karaj and it was only a fortuitous mistake with the second meal which led to us revealing our respective thoughts from the first. To begin with, here is my side of the story:

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From Curiosity To Reflection

Saturday 8 February, 2014

I ended the first post of this series talking about having the curiosity of a child in a brand new playground. As I wrote that line I questioned whether the analogy was still appropriate. Yesterday, during our most illuminating conversation so far, I got my answer. Karaj asked me whether I could recall at what point in my life my journey of self-development had begun. It felt as though he was searching for information to satisfy his own curiosity, rather than to make a point for my benefit. It felt different to how our relationship used to be.

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Complete Commitment

Friday 7 February, 2014

I felt it when we spoke on the phone in January, but being with Karaj over the past couple of days, it has been unavoidable. It’s an aspect of the man which had slipped from my memory in the years since my training, but which permeates every conversation we have: his commitment to his journey. He is more committed than anyone I have ever met to sorting himself out, releasing every last hint of residual pain or conflict, and cleansing his soul forever.

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This Is Our Celebration

Thursday 6 February, 2014

I told him what I had written yesterday: that I didn’t want to show off. He interrupted me, saying, ‘You should show off. This is our celebration.‘ He explained that leaving and returning are natural parts of the process; they make the celebration possible. I had left because I could take no more. I was being challenged every step of the way and it became increasingly difficult for me to be here. From the inquisitive, deferential person I had been at the beginning, I had become cocky, argumentative and confrontational. There had been no other option but for me to go.

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A Reunion

Wednesday 5 February, 2014

I’m off to visit Karaj today. Aside from a couple of hours in his company a few years back, this is the first time I will have seen him since my training came to a close over ten years ago. I’ll be there for a week and, as part of my preparation, I talked the visit over with a close friend because he knows me, he knows my story, and he knows how all this works. During our discussion I wrote down the following:

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