The Conclusion Is Emptiness

Monday 30 October, 2017

The content of this blog stretches back over almost 18 years. It began as a search of the truth of human behaviour, prompted by a curiosity about why people behave the way they do. The short answer, I discovered, is conditioning. Whichever direction we look it’s there; an intense and intrusive force with a seemingly unstoppable momentum behind it. There are the years of societal conditioning for example; generations of familial conditioning; and centuries of cultural conditioning.

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Friendship & The True Self

Saturday 16 September, 2017

The wedding I wrote about in the previous post was more than a wedding for me. I came away from it contemplating the nature of the connections with my friends. I was struck by their solid nature and uplifting effect, regardless of how transient or tenuous the friendships may be. Eventually my thoughts led me to another connection: the one between the worldly self and the true self. This post is about how our long-standing friendships can help us connect more firmly with who we truly are.

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The List

Wednesday 16 August, 2017

What follows is a list of many of the most important pieces from this blog. The list makes it easy for you to understand at a glance what is necessary in this work. It takes you through the process of self-development and self-realisation – from awareness, observation and reflection, and back to awareness – offering you guidance on what to expect along the way and what you can do to help yourself.

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Drop Everything For A Moment

Thursday 24 March, 2016

16 years ago, I wrote a short entry called Infinite Futures, in which I talked about the advantages of remaining within that quiet point in existence where all futures are possible, rather than allow my thoughts to limit me to one particular trajectory. My point had been to remind myself how peaceful life is when I am not preoccupied with what the future may or may not hold.

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Acknowledging Our Nature

Tuesday 31 July, 2012

We are not perfect. Far from it. We are able to love, create and nurture but we can also hate, neglect and destroy. When I witness human kindness I am deeply touched. Conversely, when I experience malice I feel dispirited. It is naïve to think we can keep the good and rid ourselves of the bad, but there is something we can do to improve humanity. We can acknowledge our nature. Acknowledge who we are.

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My True Self

Wednesday 15 October, 2003

I am still moving quickly between leaving and staying. Focusing on my body helps me to forget, but the feelings soon come rushing back. Can’t stay, can’t go. Fucked. I am not cut out for this place. I could sit for months with the letter from Leon, George & Calvin in my hands trying to find the love in it and I wouldn’t be able to.

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Just Keep Going

Tuesday 15 July, 2003

In the presence of Ishwar, Serena and Simran, Karaj said this: ‘I had two previous clients who came here to con me and prove me wrong. Simran (& Priya) are doing the same. Jonathan came here to seek the truth. That is why he is still here. So I have Jonathan and Ishwar working at the top level. Let’s move forward. George is getting there and he will bring Leon with him.

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Seeking The Truth

Friday 25 May, 2001

6.30 E&M 60 mins. I had to drag myself out of bed this morning. I felt so tired and my back ached – I think I did too much sitting yesterday and not enough moving about. Today I begin fasting for three days. Just water, pineapple and pumpkin seeds. I am curious to see what happens.

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Searching For The Truth

Sunday 1 April, 2001

Karaj rang tonight. He told me to raise the following in the Thursday men’s group this week: How do we know where we are and how do we know where we are going? It’s all about foundations and, as Karaj highlighted to me, I severely underestimate the importance of laying the foundations.

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What is the Truth?

Saturday 20 January, 2001

First men’s group of the year. It lasted a total of 14 hours. Last night I was so tired after working hard all week and all last weekend, that I had lost some enthusiasm for today’s group. I had just wanted to go to bed and rest but we still had work to do for the newsletter. Karaj was in a similar frame of mind. We were both running on empty and I wondered how I would make it through today, especially with the 9am start. The evening went on longer than I had expected but we managed to finish the newsletter in time for today’s group and this morning I got up at 7am feeling ready for action.

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